God Bears it all-My Personal Testimony

I am John Regie Anthony A. Jaminal, eldest among my three siblings, all of us were technically orphan. When I was six years old, my mother passed away, my father was in California working for us. So that, I together with my siblings are only in our house when that tragic moment happened. I saw her blood comes out from her mouth. That time was the first ever I have had experienced how to be broken.

My father came back to the Philippines to see us for a couple of months. However, he really needs to work for our future; for our education; for our food. So he moved to Guam, USA to continue his contract. He sent us to our Aunt and Uncle as our guardian parents. I learned how to disrespect them because I cannot understand the way they took care of us that time. This is not to judge my father or to condemn him but it is the reality since this is a fallen and broken world. I learned to realize that we would be a product of a family with the issue of abandonment and neglect. In addition, indeed we are.

Worst of all, I was sexually abused by an incest cousin who was influenced by a prohibited drugs (shabu). My spirit was totally broken; I am mentally and emotionally broken. I started to hate everybody, my self and God. I started to have a resentful feelings, anger, and hatred feelings to my life. I felt rejected and dejected. I felt that I was colored out. It has been hard for me to see God as sovereign and loving. I learned to question God if He is real and alive, where is He in the midst of my trials. I felt God as far as my earthly father to protect and defend me.

I began to become obsessed in doing sins! Doing sin makes me happy that time. I became a slave of my sin. When I became 18 years old, the worst became worst… First, I was a victim until chose to become an offender to take revenge through having a relationship into five different person of my same sex and have flirted with a female before. I altered my need to be safe and protected with a Fathers love into perversion and homosexual acts.

Until God started to move in 2006, He sent my first and Korean discipler (An Jin Han) to disciple me through Campus Crusade for Christ. Until I received Jesus Christ as personal Savior and Lord by faith to zeal me with His Holy Spirit and experience the love of God as my Father last September 11, 2006

“In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.” 1 Peter 1:6-7

I cannot contain His Love and Forgiveness. However, the trials and temptations will be present or struggles might hunt you. He is sovereign to protect and defend me. Now, The Holy Spirit is my Counselor to remind me to have a sense of ownership not to conform of what ignorance I had lived. As a child of God, He is sovereign enough not to leave me.

I started to live by faith and trusted God to Father me every day. He is my every day God! It was very difficult to forgive people specially to forgive my Cousin and my father. Yet as an illustration of Max Lucado “Apple trees bear apples, wheat stalks produce wheat and forgiven people forgive people. Grace is the natural outgrowth of grace.” Every Day Deserves A Chance. I thank God for His mercy and grace to forgave me. He chose to forgive me. Forgiving is a decision. Therefore, I chose to forgive and forgive and forgive.

I found my identity in Christ! I found the security that I long for years in Him.

We as brethren, I covet your faithful prayers to continually pray for me to remain faithful and experience more of His goodness, unfailing love and grace. Be filled by his Holy Spirit and live a Holy Life as written as instruction from the Living Word.

For I know that there is more to come. More of Him who loved us. And Him.

To God be all the Glory!